NBSJ

He is my first love, first boyfriend, my everything

If only one reason I could leave him is the death

I love him more than I love myself

6 November 2012 we start it over
It only hold in 2 months 17 days

exactly at this day, 23 January 2013, we got break up

it hurts me so much

I'm happy to be with you

How can I live my life without you?
Please tell me how to fix it.

I love you and it always be.

Loving you remains forever for me.

I'm not looking for who is wrong.
I'm not looking for a mistake.

It's just for both of us to learn.

I have no longer stay away from you.
I couldn't heal myself alone.
It's my heart you take,
but then you threw away.

I even couldn't hear your voice untill this day we apart.

It's been thousands days we've known each other.

I'm sorry for doubting you.
you right, it should be as simple as it should,
but I just made it complicated more and more.

do you think love will find me?
well, I don't think so.

Love will gonna find its own way,
not me either me
not you either you
not now either now

Love has its own way

and if I right, Love will bring us together someday,
I hope so.

I'm fine honey,
Nothing for you to worry about.

couldn't you see this reflection?
It's just a little things of my heartpieces,
it's reflecting the sorrow
the rest of it?
just bright, happy, and full of hope.

I will be waiting for you.

I'm not going anywhere
you can still found me

I'm exactly in your heart.

wanna know what I feel right now?
ask your heart,
cause I'm in you.

".....O let's go back to the start. Nobody said it was easy, No one ever told it's could be this hard.
       Just take me back to the start....."

".... That the herolies in you....."

with my tears, -MM

Love you NBSJ

06-11-2012

-MRDM-

" a lot of stars in the sky which are not remain the same every single night.. But you remain the same every single second of my life" - MM